redefinition of a typical malay mind

FB connects me to my cousin from my dad’s side recently. We are of the same age, and used to be quite close when we were little. But as life took place, we kind of lost contact. Thanks to FB, we found each other.

Obviously, many things had happened since we last met. Excitedly through FB we talked about our lives and our family, until she asked me one question:

” Hey, have you called your dad? He asked me about you, last time I visited him”

And that question simply makes me SENTAP.

Why must he asked about me? The last time I checked, after he got is EPF money, he moved out of his house, refused to pick up my calls and refused to talk to me or any of my sisters.Why? Has his money decelerate to the danger zone that he realized, he once again need this stupid daughter of his?

I know, I might sound a little emotional on this.

But, as much as I want to love him , I refused to get frustrated and hurt again. I have learned my lessons. I refused to be used, I refused to be in debt, and I refused to be derhaka. With that, I simply refused to call or to be in contact with him.

I am no longer angry, I have learned to forgive if not forget. But for the time being, I am happy with how things are and I simply REFUSED to be (mentally ) tormented nor tortured again.

I REFUSED.