Acute Demotivation Syndrome

My brain suddenly dropped to an unimaginable level of dumbness. I contracted flu every single time i drove through the office entrance. To get out of my bed, is such a huge burden for my legs and body suddenly become extra heavy, at one point I can’t feel my legs dragging me to the bathroom. My mind and body is no longer synchronize.

My brain is telling me to go to work, my hands are pulling the blanket on me, making it more than comfortable to continue sleeping. My brain is telling me to pump some fuel into Wakiki as he has indicated that the fuel is running low, but my feet stepped on the pedal so hard with intention if Wakiki runs out of gas, I don’t have to go to work.

I am easily pissed, a stupid mistake by someone dear to me caused me a whole day of heartache ( or was it a week? hmm). I cant tolerate waiting, it makes me sweats heavily, and gave me sleepless nights. I am ALSO having NIGHTMARES and terrible mood swings.

This is not normal. Absolutely NOT NORMAL. It affect my performance. It diminished my passion for work. Not reduce, but diminish. 

There’s only one cure for this. A vaccine that I’ve waited for since October. A vaccine should it be here by now, would solve all my issues and put me up on track again. Unfortunately, it is not here YET.

I am not sure how long i could tolerate this waiting. I tried to tell myself, demotivation is just a state of mind. But even that didn’t work. Only one thing could solve this.

it is…

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